Relief

12:42am - Lee comfortable and more alert before a shot of Gravol put her to sleep. Sharing a nice room with a young girl and attended by a good overnight nurse. Hardly any fluid draining now through the NG tube. Had a chance to pray with Lee's new room mate and meditate on a few scriptures.

"God is our refuge and strength,

an ever-present help in trouble.

Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way

and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,

though its waters roar and foam

and the mountains quake with their surging." Psalm 46:1

And as I write this,

"Where, O death, is your victory?

Where, O death, is your sting?”

The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ." 1Cor:55

As sad as this journey is, there is peace for Lee Anne and I. Such hope in knowing that God has already healed her spiritually,

He himself bore our sins” in his body on the cross, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; “by his wounds you have been healed.” 1Pe2:24

So as much as we can still pray and should pray for physical healing, we can take great comfort in the knowledge that she is already healed with a new home in heaven waiting for her.

7:30pm - a brother reminded me that I was hungry and brought over a tasty home-cooked meal. He listened to me as I verbally processed all that is happening. The emotional intensity is immense, and it is all I can do but to let a few tears out now and again in fear of bursting a great damn of emotion that is building up like a giant reservoir. 

6:40pm - there was a mix up and we're back in emerg as the bed wasn't ready when we arrived in the ward. Color is returning to Lee's cheeks as she sleeps and the NG tube flow has stopped. 

For the first time in 5 days, I'm hopeful again that we still have some time left. Please pray that the Caelyx chemo has an effect and that Lee's bowels miraculously free themselves from cancer's evil grip. We want Lee's pain and nausea to subside and for her to be able to suck ice chips and have a few sips of water tomorrow without throwing it all up when the NG tube suction is turned off temporarily.

5:40pm - we've got a bed and should be going upstairs within 30 minutes. Lee's obviously not feeling good but is feeling the best she's been since arriving at the hospital. Our palliative care doctor came to see us on her way home and explained what we might expect to happen over the next 24-48 hours. Forgive the detail but please pray for Lee to pass gas!

4:00pm - the girls came to see their Mom after school and each gave her a little kiss. Jonathan and Queenie also came to visit and went home to help get the kids fed and off to gymnastics.

3:00 - Sandra and Wally went home for a fresh change of clothes and to unpack from their Florida trip (they drove straight back from Florida just days ago)

11:30am - I leave to take Alexandra to school 😢 while Sandra and Wally stay with Lee. Quite a few BM's!

10:15am - our pastor came to visit and pray with Lee, Alexandra and I. As sad as  Lee Anne's condition is, heaven is so much more than we could hope for or imagine. When the time comes Lee will fall asleep and when she wakes up, we'll all be together again in a timeless eternity. This is the hope for those of us who believe in Jesus for the forgiveness of our sin.

8:00am - praise the Lord, Lee's bowels are moving through again and she's starting having bowel movements! Although not conclusive, this indicates the blockage may have cleared. She's feeling really bad though and is weaker than yesterday.